smoky eyes and nude lips.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 10:53:25 GMT

it's the end,
i'll end it.
i say it, i'll do it.

why must i stay and let a family climb all over me like this?
parents and their son, all against me now.
but hey, i have parents too, imagine how they'll feel if they find out how their daughter was being treated?
i swear they'll blow off, unimaginable.

all the cold treatments,
all the excuses,
it's probably just using them to force me to initiate the break up.
good choice seriously,
good timing as well.

i admire your mind,
you sure do think smart.

blah.

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 11:23:38 GMT

it wasn't easy for me to go through these few days,
i'll say not torture, not sufferings, but irritating mind games which i kept getting.
it's just pure human killer to me.
i don't know what's on their mind,
or not even on his mind.

this just sucks big time,
knowing nothing you do is gonna help.
you try to stay strong, offer support and sent out many messages to assure that you guys will work together to make things better,
but all you get back are hurting, and more hurtful words.
is this a game of love or what?
how come i'm the only one crying out loud all day? alone.
i've never felt this strong before in my entire life,
but when i'm THIS strong, i keep getting pulled down.
worse, by the person i supposed will support me the most.
YES, i'm not the direct victim here,
but i believe i'm suffering as much as the victim is!
so who do i turn to?

~~Screw this.~~
I must be strong.

If only..

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 07:27:12 GMT

I guess when the time comes, any couple out there is bound to face obstacles of their own.
in my case, our time is more or less up.
Reasons being,
characters clashing?
parents' objection?
At the end of the day, it's all down to excuses plus more excuses to make yourself feel better about the break up.
As i grew up to believe, if your love is strong, you will stand together as one, no matter what happens.

Parents, do they really play a part in relationships?
Well, i guess it's possible in my case.
But just how much do they actually stand in a relationship?
I believe it's pretty much up to the couple to decide, nt any other third parties.

And if you break up with your other half due to parents' objections, is it even an acceptable reason?
How many couples out there actually broke up with their girlfriend/boyfriend because of parents? Please, stand out and share with me, it'll probably help to make me feel a whole lot better now.
At this moment, i can't help but have the thought of just leaving, rather than leaving him in a difficult spot.
2 years relationship, is it worth me doing it?
A huge part of me telling me to hold on and fight for this, convince parents that this relationship is between two people.
But honestly, i can't do this alone.

sunkissed!

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 15:32:15 GMT

Sunbathed at siloso last weekend with sister and princess jingle, hearts the weather totally! poor boyfriend, attempted to tann on monday but the weather was bad and to make him feel worse, on days that he's working, the weather's puuurrrfect!

Nothing interesting to share these days because i'm basically slacking my days away. school's out and i've pretty much sorted out my future plans. Gonna go for the next SIA interview, one last try and my future will be settled on that day itself, 27th april.

Really want another little getaway some time soon, our small little island here is really getting out-of-hand boring!

I'm back!

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 16:02:25 GMT

Hey readers! Gracie's back to life in livejournal after soooooo soooo so long! Okay, don't quite know what's with the sudden urge to post an entry tonight, as you can see my latest entry was dated 10 dec, which means roughly 3 months long!

Received the letter today from temasek poly congratulating me on my completion of course of study in Diploma in Retail Management. I must say, i'm really happy that i've managed through. Well, i mean with all the slacking and not-attending-lectures for three whole years, who isn't worried of not passing?

Let's recap back a little.

20th March, BMW night drive with boyfriend.
Dinner at Rio Brazilian Restaurant with the BMW gang, and i must comment that the food there is better than i've expected. Followed by the meet-up at Kallang with the whole BMW night drive gang and setting off to the route Kallang - Kent Ridge 99 Turns (with a really superb night view from above)- Changi Airport T3.

Can't seem to understand till now what's with the interest that these guys have for such activities. A group of people gathered together all just because of a BMW car that they own. Well, still leaves me clueless until today.

21st March, Stayover with baby on our 2nd year anniversary.
Pretty great time spent together. Thinking back, all the countless quarrels for the past two years are nothing when compared to just one simple night that i've been looking forward to. Wonder how many more of these little memories we can share.

There're photos for these activities but as usual, livejournal uploads pictures like a snail walking. So, yeah maybe next time i'll upload them. :)

Not forgetting the little 'faint' incident i've met with couple weeks back. Until now, i'm still bothered by the fact that i've ended up with a scar. Yes, a scar right below my left chin. It just bothers me so much. Hopefully it'll recover in time to come for the interview.

I'm burning real hot all over now from the sunbathing in the day, awesome sun i must say!
So yeah, time to knock off!

jingle's big day!

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 13:31:22 GMT

baby girl's birthday.

photo one!

photo two!

getting impatient!

moving towards the sinful cake.

sniff sniff*

and finally, eating time!

simply delicious!

yummy!

happy birthday, baby jingle!
you're one year old now!

YAYNESS!

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 11:32:16 GMT

haven't jotted down my thoughts and happenings for a month,
am glad attachment's finally over!
like really, HOORAY!
i hate the fact that this attachment has taken away my life,
no more late nights, partying and meeting up with friends.
and now that it has ended, i swear i'm gonna make it all up.
and it's gonna be double the fun i've missed!

i swear last week was horror,
had this minor surgery at the dental clinic to extract my wisdom teeth.
it's so no-words-can-describe painful.
i swear i hate the thought of going to the dentist now.
and i've four wisdom tooth,
can you imagine?
and still getting braces? no thanks. never.

ask about my relationship?
can only say this attachment not only affected my relationship with my friends,
but also greatly affected my love life.
like totally, putting it on the rocks now.
i'm doubting is things will even go back to normal between us,
now that my attachment's ended but everything has changed so much it just seems so tough to make things back to normal.
i wonder.

hip hip hooray! no more work!
more fun fun FUN!

blah.

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 06:57:05 GMT

haven't updated for a long time,
been too tired after work to even type out these thoughts.

a week into working at the backend office,
been good so far.
colleagues are all getting more friendly,
and workload is manageable.
it's definitely so much better,
compared to working at bebe for the past one and a half months.

as for the relationship, it's on the rocks.
we just both can't give in,
and this time round,
i'm sure it wasn't my fault.
fullstop.

tohellwithwork.

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 16:11:18 GMT

work is ***king tiring!
and it's ***king redundant and waste of my time!
screw internship,
screw attachment.
PERIOD.

SIP

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 07:59:05 GMT

attachment's gonna start in exactly a week,
and i'm pretty sure i won't be able to handle it.
given my totally slack life for the past nineteen years,
i seriously feel i'm heading for hell; aka work.
monday, 10 september SIP results will be launched,
and thank god, i secured a placement with BEBE.
i mean, at least i get to choose a boutique which i like,
and not some departmental store the school's posting me to.
hopefully, i wish,
i get my ultimate choice of workplace.
three months,
of lesser sleeping time,
of no late nights,
of no nightlife,
of no lazing around at home,
and the most depressing, lesser shopping!
it'll be all over soon grace.
hang on to it,
oh dear, this feels so scary even though it hasn't started.

one week to go,
enjoy!

yippee.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 06:16:15 GMT

i thank god i have my silly baby to cheer me up these days,
i've been really down lately and he's been going through many tortures from me.
he's the one who will make sure everything goes well for me,
and the one who comes up with many brithday surprises for me,
but always getting a heart attack whenever somehow i can guess what he's up to.
teehehe,
but baby, i still appreciate them okieesssss.

and i'm awaiting the one surprise you're giving me this evening. :)
can't wait, can't wait!
plus, i can't wait to see all the loves tonight!

ok, i've really really great news for tonight.
like i'm super duper tired now,
and i feel like i'm floating i've totally no energy to move,
because i slept at like hell eight in the morning and got woken up at exactly twelve noon, not even a second more.
four hours of sleep is hell compared to my must-have minimum nine hours.
all thanks to being chauffeur for the family early this morning.
oh dear, how am i to survive the late night!

OMG.

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 08:09:51 GMT

i'm so farked,
i totally left out my birthday night.
i just realise i didn't make any plans for that night.

boo boo.

spreeing!

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 12:06:24 GMT

i haven't been updating as often nowadays,
my journal's looking pretty empty.
yes yes i'm hooked!
hoookedddd to online spreeing!
and i can't seem to have enough of my cheap purchases,
stop grace, stop!
ok, so lately all my money are going to these 'future' investments,
as these sprees take a while to reach you because they require shipping from other countries.
but it's all worthwhile,
because you get the cheapest and nicest stuff!

one of the latest spree i recommend,
http://spreeing.livejournal.com/2054.html#cutid1
go shop now and help make the limit reach so that this spree can work out!

ok i know i'm going nuts but i've been pretty down lately but theres just three things that can really cheer me up,
and that's spreeing spreeng and spreeing,
plus this,

and not forgetting jingle darling!

love.

retail therapy please!

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 15:46:36 GMT

headed to town to meet kalyn darling,
and did some shopping.
in the end, we headed to tcc shaw empty handed.
but we had a great dessert meal over at tcc,
yum yum,
we seriously felt like two happy little girls.

i ordered this tiramisu that is filled with a thick layer of yucky rum,
no wonder it's called ti-rum-misu over at tcc.
seeing my leftover, the lady server got a little worried and approached me to check if the dessert's ok.
lady: how's the food, miss?
me: it's great, it's nice.
lady looked at me with worried eyes on my unfinished dessert.
me: yes it's nice, don't worry. oh, just that there's too much rum and i don't really like rum.
lady: OH, rum!
okay, it's doesn't sound right here but she sounded like she didn't know there's rum in the tiramisu at that point of time.
and later, this kind lady server ran after us when we left with this bag of leftover food that i've intended to throw away,
gawd, ultimate service!

we couldn't stand heading home empty handed,
so we decided to head over to bugis to continue shopping.
and yes, we each got something for ourselves.
totally expected.

yes you know i miss you now, darling!

emotions untold.

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 15:45:02 GMT

somebody help,
i'm losing it.

those tears are falling,
please please don't.

good endings hurt.

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 10:42:03 GMT

alone and abandoned,
in this isolated space.

struggling hard,
so hard,
just so you will know.

down.

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 06:07:30 GMT

time is running out.

i can't breathe.

pretty hideouts.

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 15:21:04 GMT

i swear these places are so beautiful!
didn't even know singapore has such hideouts,
ohhhhhhh love love!

graze.

hacienda.

one rochester.

ps cafe.

birthday's coming,
where o where.

heart you many.

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 16:34:15 GMT

you're my one and only,
i know how much you love and care for me.
you asked who i've ever loved the most,
my answer is you till today.

i'll never give up on you,
never ever.

praying.

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 14:31:48 GMT

my left eyelid's been twitching since earlier on,
i'm getting worried.

pray hard.

ps.cafe

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 13:39:16 GMT

new love; ps.cafe at dempsy hill,
i really want my nineteenth birthday to be celebrated here.
but it's way too inaccessible,
baby was giving the big no-no signal.

remember the previous post i wrote about my birthday wishes,
now i've gotta come up with a brand new list.
because i've already gotten three out of four of my wishes granted,
even way before my actual birthday!
new hairdo,
new handbag,
new heels!

yes yes,
i feel like a happy little girl now.
thank you babyboy!

i'm a happy girl!

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 13:25:11 GMT

sentosa with baby and three dogs; jingle, yang2 and angel.
heart the weather totally,
like finally the right sun is out for sunbathing!
but didn't get to tann for long because the dogs couldn't stand the intense heat.
headed back home late noon to shower and get ready for town at night!

two loves; jingle & yang2.

poor boy couldn't take the heat.

handsome boy!

tried pretty hard to get a proper photo up with the three loves,

but to no avail.

angelic angel.

my prince charming; only love.

and silly refused to take any photo with me!
but he's a sweet boyfriend, i swear.
buffet dinner at marriot and,
he got me my favourite bag,
my favourite heels,
and my favourite guy.
what's love; herman.

birthday ups!

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 08:11:20 GMT

ok, so time passes so amazingly fast,
my nineteenth birthday's coming in about a month's time.
i haven't really plan the day yet,
but i did spend some time drawing out a list of presents i would love to receive this year!
tehehe.

19th birthday wishes!

one, i think i need a bag,
a bigger one so that my boyfriend will stop nagging everytime we're out.

this,

or this?

two, i fell in love with this pair of Guess heels days back,
i must have it!

three, i really want to get my hair done up,
a change after so long.

four, this set of bikini i love.
okay, so i've placed an order for it but yet to collect and am just hoping someone might offer to pay for it.

alrights, as expected these are just a few.
there's more but i prefer to just list the main few.
:)

oh, please please.

beautiful chijmes.

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 06:34:04 GMT

tanya's surprise birthday bash at chijmes,
and a moment of sweetness spent with my baby boy.
ok, so what if i didn't know chijmes was an old church until tonight,
just don't laugh!

the silly one; my happiness.

and now baby's out clubbing,
leaving me all alone at home,
like again.

cold wednesday.

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 06:17:17 GMT

homely day with boyfriend,
and later the simpsons with baby and his friends; nat and carlo.
it's so hilarious i swear!
all of you should just go catch it.
then to esplanade,
i really love the night there,
minus all the emotions you'd get unknowingly.
haagen dazs wtih good company,
like i finally got to use the vouchers :)
i want a build-a-bear bear please!

i miss my friends.